It was Christmas Eve 2008 and life was hectic to say the least. Peyton was 2 1/2, Reagan was a fussy 3 month old, I had no job because the family business slowed down, daddy was worried about his job and I was STRESSED!!! In the few days prior to Christmas Eve, I had also been telling daddy that I really thought I was pregnant. He just laughed at me because well, I used to take a million test being paranoid. So, I was super cranky that day, took a test and then almost fainted!! Two lines quickly appeared....I had taken enough test in my time to know that when the two lines appear within seconds, it's the real deal! I walked out to Jasper in shock, scared and shaky. After all, we had a three month old baby. From the time daddy and I got married and decided to have a family, we just kind of went with it. Left it in God's hands to decide what He saw fit for us. So in all reality I shouldn't have been shocked. We had wanted to wait till we were back to being more financially stable, in a bigger home, Reagan closer to a year old and so on. With in minutes though my shock turned to happiness and hopefulness! I reminded myself that if God led me to it, He will bring me through it. That fact has been a staple of my life since conceiving you. We were in a stressful time and I wasn't sure how we could provide for three children, how I could love another baby when I had two, would I be able to handle three kids? So many questions and fears! That night, we went to Christmas Eve service at church. This was the first time that mommy and daddy had ever gone to church together and it was the first time your sisters had gone. It changed our lives forever. I sat there and listened to them speak about Mary and how she was CHOSEN to carry Jesus, to give birth to him, to raise him for His father's glory. In that moment I realized how blessed I was to be carrying you. You may have surprised us with your timing, but you didn't surprise our Heavenly Father!! He had picked daddy and I to bring you up! He picked mommy to carry you in her belly, to nurture you, sing to you, to feed you, to grow you, to birth you and bring you up for His glory! That night in church I turned all of my faith to the Lord and I prayed to Him that night to make me strong enough. Strong enough to carry another beautiful baby, patient enough to raise 3 kids 3 and under. Anyways, my short story is getting long so lets fast forward. September 3rd 2009, you were born! A couple of quick pushes after a 9 hour labor and you were out! Loud as could be and ready to take on the world! Those first few weeks are still fresh in my mind because they were blissful but hard! Daddy had been layed off from his job due to the economy so now we both were out of work, stressed out but trying to keep the wheel turning and bring you girls up in a happy, calm, God loving home! Daddy then was hired for a short term job and worked nights. You were a very fussy, colicky baby and would scream from 8pm to midnight. This went on for 7 weeks or so. I look back now and laugh because it's so you that you picked that time of day to be fussy. You wanted ME. ALL of me. You are still that way. You love with every ounce of your being and you always have. I remember nights when I would cry in the beginning. Scared that I wouldn't be able to do it all, be everything, make everyone happy. People would stop me and say "Are you crazy to have 3 kids those ages?" "Don't you know how to stop that?" Then there were people that said "Wow, you have it so together!" HA, little did they know! However, Jordyn Sophia, in that time, you held me together ! You and the Lord! Every time you would look at me and smile or coo, or laugh or cry, I reminded myself that God chose me! God gave me you!
Here we are two fast, sweet and amazing years later!! God has blessed us. Blessed us huge! I know it's because we never lost faith! We kept trying to raise you three with the love of the Lord! Then at 17 months old, you became a big sister! It has been so fun to watch!! You adore your baby brother!! You make us all so happy! I will get onto some fun facts about you now but first, here are a few sweet pictures of you my sweet, feisty, mischievous Jordy!
Sweet, sweet Jordyn at two years old you...
Are talking like CRAZY!! A lot of it is in your own language, but man you go on and on!
You know a lot of your colors already- pink and purple are your favorites!
You are a BULLY! You rule the roost around here and mommy has had to get on you a few times for bullying the bigger kids/daycare kids BUT you are finally getting over that!
You are as I said a bully however, lately you have become very, very sweet and loving! You want to give everyone hugs and kisses all the time.
We are certain that you don't feel pain. Seriously, if you get hurt you laugh and do it again.
You are a MAJOR mama's girl! You choose mommy over everyone else! I love it!:)
You love to sing Twinkle Twinkle Little Star and the Days of The Week song!
You have a major sweet tooth and BEG for suckers!
You are determined when you want something, you will whine till you drive us crazy!;)
You are very, very sneaky and mischievous! You love to jump off furniture when we are not looking, get into mommy's purse, steal your sisters toys. It's kind of cute....KIND OF!
You do this cute thing when you know you are in trouble- You cover your face and get this silly grin, like if you can't see us then we can't see you! It's so cute I sometimes forget you were in trouble.
You love love love to play with your big sissy's and they love you so much!
You love your brother and try to help all of the time. Sometimes a little too much and I have to remind you that some things are a mommy job. If you see a bottle on the counter and I'm not looking, you take it and try to feed him. When I go to get him up in the morning, you always go in with me and in this cute little voice say "Hiiiiii, Hiiiiii, Hiiiiii mitter man" then you tickle him and make him smile!
You love when we blow on your belly or let you blow on ours!
You would live at the park if I let you!
You are a picky eater but you love cereal and pancakes.
You have a new love for all things Elmo and if you see Elmo on something, you will scream about it!
You are our first kid not potty trained by two...you are going to be stubborn!:)
You love all things dirty! You are ALWAYS A MESS!! I remind myself that it's ok if you are filthy, it just means you are having a good time!
Jordyn Sophia, I could go on for hours talking about you! You make me smile, make me laugh, make me proud, make me happy, stress me out and so many things in between. I wish I had more hours in the day to just sit and hold you, cuddle with you, kiss you and hug you. I just want to slow time down. I hope you know each and everyday how much you are loved, that you complete our family and that your are the best surprise gift I have EVER or could ever be given! I am so, so glad that God knew I needed you and you needed me. I am so thankful I am your mama!! I love you to the moon and back
"My Tiny Best Friend!!!"
Love, mommy
Oh goodness you have me sobbing like a baby over here. Beautiful post :) Happy Birthday Jordyn!
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