There are so many moments as a mother that I am pretty certain I am losing my mind! The house is dirty, the playschool is busy, one kid is late for ballet while the other can't seem to get their homework done, dinner is pushed back due to soccer practice, one kid falls down and smacks their face in the ground and blood is gushing everywhere while my 2 year old is crying because he can't get his superman costume on (for the 10th time today) by himself. So much chaos. In fact, some days raising littles causes so much chaos that it is no longer considered chaos, it is considered normal. It is the season of life that I am in. Our family is LOUD, very hyper, outgoing, competitive and messy! We cause a whirlwind of chaos but we try to bring happiness with us!
I am working on myself more and more each day to embrace (really embrace) the chaos that is my life. When I slow down and take a look around me, I am more than aware of my blessings. Like when my 2 year old crawls in my bed each morning at 5:30am and I desperately want to be mad but then he says "mama, you're my lady, I lub you!" in the cutest voice ever. Or the moment that my 4 year old couldn't fall asleep without another hug and kiss from me but the second she gets that hug and kiss, she is content. I shouldn't be upset by that but instead be thankful that she needs and wants ME. I am the center of her universe. It's the blessing of running on empty trying to keep up with the house chores and then walking into my 5 year old's bedroom and finding that she made her bed perfect so that I wouldn't have to. It's that glorious moment when my 7 year old becomes brave enough that she asks to lead dinner time prayer. All blessings. Each little moment I have a choice. I can just ignore the sweet little blessings and go on about my chaotic day and not stop to pause and think about the memory my child just made and what it meant to me OR I can stop, take it in and simply tell them "I love you". I could never tell my children I love them too many times. I warn them that when they are grown with children of their own I will still call them at least once a day to simply say "I love you and you are a blessing to me". I am so blessed that God chose me to be their mama and it is my job to never make them feel like they are "too much" for me but instead make them FEEL loved and content and confident in my love for them. There are so many blessings in my day to day chaos.




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