I'm not sure what happened, of course I credit God, maybe He just felt it was time to speak to my heart and remind me how precious my life is. I feel like I have done A LOT of growing up lately. I have surrounded my life with great things and people and have a strong life. I have a handful of friends that I know would do anything for me, and to me that's great! Some people want a million friends so they can feel secure and confident but I have discovered that you do not need a million people in life. The important thing is to fill your life with people you know care and also to reach out to people that really could use a friend too! I have really tried to be a better friend, wife, mother, daughter, sister and even daycare provider because I want the people in my life to feel loved by me!
I am really working on remembering that life is SO short and precious and that each day I am given is a gift and I must choose how I am going to use that gift. I thought when I turned 18, shortly after that got engaged, got married at 19 had children by 21, that I was a grown up....Oh yeah, naturally I am married with kids I MUST be a grown up and know what life is all about right? WRONG!! I have just now reached the point that I feel I am a woman and not a girl. Maybe it's because I am turning 26 and finally hitting the higher part of my 20s and can no longer say I am in my early 20s.;) I know, still so young but let me tell you it's scary to be getting closer and closer to 30. Especially when you feel like you look like you have aged 20 years in the last 5. Having kids tends to age you!;) I was thinking the other day about the time that Jasper and I have been together. I remember when we got married thinking that I knew every little detail about him and that our life would be perfect. There would never be an argument, we would kiss all day for the rest of our lives and our marriage would be perfect 24-7. Well in reality our marriage is perfect because I know we can withstand anything thrown our way! HOWEVER, it is not easy and the reality is, I feel like I am just beginning to know my husband completely. It's another thing that has really been on my mind lately. Just how blessed I am that we are about to spend our 6th wedding anniversary together. Some people search their whole lives for what we have or have it and then tragically lose it in many different circumstances. I take it so for granted. We were laughing and saying how sad it was that for our anniversary, we are going to Reno to spend a night out at a nice dinner while my parents watch the kids however, we will still spend our anniversary night in a hotel room with 4 kids...However that's not sad, it's blessed. The fact is, babies are the season of life we are in, so who better to be there to walk with us through the start of another year of marriage then our babies?
Anyways, this is another one of my rambling post that is really not necessarily anything anyone wants to read about, but this along with being a public blog at the moment (Unless I go private) is also my journal. My life has a lot of private aspects however, there are a lot of things that I like to share so other young women out there can see what another woman goes through in the day to day life! All my thoughts spilled out in the same chaotic way my life takes place! My thoughts are always a little all over the place lol! To be honest my husband always gives me a bad time about how all over the place I am. I will be doing something and then 5 minutes later he walks in and my first task is left undone and I am in the other end of the house doing something else...It's just me, what can I say?!;)
Here is a really bad scanned in photo of me and my love on our wedding day! I can barely believe it will be 6 years next Saturday that we said I DO! I was wedding dress shopping with a friend today and it brought back a flood of memories of my own special day! Little did I think that day almost 6 years ago that my life could be any more blessed than it was at that moment, yet it is!
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